Call of the dead   von <span style='color: gray;'>abgemeldet</span>
                              (A poem collection)
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                                Kapitel 3: Why
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I lie
to myself because I can’t bear the truth,
deny
all evidence or factual proof,
why I
am acting like that you ask me?
Now I
am a bad person, so that’s just me.

Why?
Are you doing this to hurt me?
No, I
am simply trying to help you be free...
But why,
why are you seeking to scare me out of my mind?
Because I care for you,
you’re one of a kind.

I sigh
but my voice remains unheard,
I cry
but my tears remain unseen,
I try,
try again, all my efforts in vain,
so shy,
never dared to reveal my true pain.

Why,
why do you always lock me up deep?
No, I
just don’t want you to leave...
And why,
why do you intend to stop me breathe?
Because you would go way too far,
just to live.

Could I
escape from this prison of mind,
I’d fly,
leaving everything far far behind,
so high,
high above the dumb, staring crowd,
and my
mighty wings spread I scream out loud.

Why?
Why are you torturing me with your thoughts?
No, I
only want to show you your faults…
And why?
Are you planning to make me insane?
Because I still want to save you,
save you from your pain…

Goodbye,
I say to myself when I leave.
I’ll die,
simply not wanting to breathe.
I smile,
looking up to the darkest of skies,
then I
take one single step to the dive.

Why,
why do you want me to suffer eternally?
No, I
truly don’t want to make others mad…
And why
do you put me in chains, killing me?
Because you are safe inside,
safe from being so bad.

I cry,
and scream helplessly but you just walk by,
I die,
and all you do is asking me why.

Why,
just why did I have to die with you?
No, I
chose to come with you on my own free will…
And why
did you and I have to die?
Because the poor ones always pay the bill…

WHY? Because –

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