Day of depression
private chatroom /// 12.08.1998
14:26 Uhr
Melly:
And :-)
Arrived at home well?
14:27 uhr
Azu:
Not so good. Watch RTL2 at the moment. Made my day. Finally watching animes again. Have to go to the city immediately to buy some new mangas.
16:50 Uhr
Azu:
No meeting tomorrow
have to cancel it
everbody is mad here
i think of run away again and they don't have to wonder why
that much on this subject of my yeasty recklessness and i have to go to the asylum and queue up
They just spread a bunch of their saily 3rd world war terror
love must be great - NOT
i listn to planet punk with headphones to calm myself down
'cause of the stress and trouble here
17:06 Uhr
Melly:
Ok no problem
17:38 Uhr
Azu:
Absolutely sickening here :(
17:47 Uhr
Melly:
Things will fall into place.
My parents make trouble 'cause of the new piercing. They found this one in my tounge. grounding not better yeah
17:48 Uhr
Melly:
Good thatt they don't know the other ones ;-)))
What would they slap me on this? Jail?
18:04 Uhr
Azu:
Hm
18:33 Uhr
Azu:
at least I work on on your dress. At the moment i sew the laces on it. maybe we could go to the shop on the end of the end of the Spitaler str on the end of the we? can we take a look of the great gothic dresses? need inspiration
18 :57 Uhr
Melly:
at least something good
yes we can do this (we have to look 'cause of grounding)
just had a gross chat with an pevert old guy ... don't want a cell phone
19:20 Uhr
Azu:
oh noo :/
Just got one. 'cause of job and stuff. soon the serious side of life starts for us :-x
19:22 Uhr
Azu:
Gosh. Now that guy turns his phone off. and their parents say he's not in town. that much is clear ....
They can't be serious!?
Melly:
creepy shit :-0
Azu:
he declined our meeting yesterday 20 minutes before I was at this place, just wanted to fetch my remaining things. not more than this. my gameboy my n64 just that stuff
his excuse he goes to rehab to experts
it took a load of my mind he has no control of it anymore
19:25 Uhr
Azu:
today he claim: nope i've just skipped that damn job und i don't got back to school too
and no plan how to finance my life or to get something ... ANYTHING done or get new work
parents want to sack me out of their house
yeas of course
yeah?
And when i say: ok, but i need my stuff
i just came to pack my things and go
yell at me, suddenly,
He hung up
19:26 Uhr
Azu:
And I've written via mail cause I had no credit on cell anymore: okay, we don't drive all these extra miles to you bugger to Bremen to be stood up again
He turns his phone off
This damn cell that was a fucking loan by my mother! only a lone, not a gift. but this moroon didn't get it! Maybe it's already totally damaged. My Gameboy was e-waste after about 2 months
7:27PM
Azu:
I toy with the notion of complain to the police 'cause of thievery in the next days. If he sold my stuff for dope, I would freak out!!!
Dope dope dope dope
Me me me me
That's inside his brain
fucking drug guy
7:28PM
Melly:
He's of his head !!!
Azu:
he's obliged to give me my things back
Melly:
Would say to him that you go to police if he didn't give your things back. look what happens then
Azu:
He would judge it as a threat again
or force him into a corner
just a psycho with his wicked brain
7:30PM
Azu:
I think that I threaten him - I just go to police
Melly:
Okay. Then do it!
8:36PM
Azu:
Now my mother pressusize me too
Wonderful ...
8:37PM
Melly:
Woa
Azu:
great day ...
Nope!!
So much for the topic of sensivity to that thing recently
empathy like an avalanche
just my family
Melly:
just, just screwed!
8:38PM
Melly:
phat ... NOT
8:39PM
Azu:
Yepp
And then the reproaches, additional
at my room
"Planet punk" LP always helps
Karlsquell is unfortunetaly empty
Do you have the last cans???
I'm no junkie of course
but a beer would be nice
I've just give it to my mother straight via short message
she forced me to get a cellhone 'cause of accessibility
... if she wishes to do so.
8:43PM
Melly:
Ok
8:44PM
Azu:
"I think that it doesn't make anything better
I feel like I'm in a tight corner and pressured
futhermore it's difficult 'cause I have no place where I can go
And I'm at the mercy of you and I really don't want this
all this beef and yelling is a great burden for me"
8:45PM
Melly:
good
always that folks
just have shit for brains
whave to drink the Kool-Aid and they can act at like they are 5y old at home
8:46PM
Azu:
Haha :-)
or younger???
probably it enrages them even more???
I's sad that they mean that they can push me around
like a meiden
